The Victim

mystery morningby Lara Marriott

My mind is playing tricks on me

even though I’m okay

I can’t be fooled; I’ve got this

Yet a dejavu takes me away

down the wrong path

To a place I wished I didn’t visit again

It is dark and deceptive

cold as sin

 

A spiral staircase leading to black

How did I get here?

I can’t walk back

It is drawing me in

I can’t get out

There is nothing I can do

I am the victim now…

 

No I am not.  I’ve been told a lie

I will take back my life

one step at a time

I can get back out if I climb

I am not the victim

 

I can see the light coming into view

It is getting bigger and strengthening my will

I don’t need to swallow the world

I can’t handle more

There are so many things to be thankful for

 

Just take one day to the next

God says to my mind

I need to trust that He sees;

There is purpose to find

I will not be the victim

I am climbing back up

My resolve is to reflect

my Creator’s love

I am not the victim…anymore!

(this has been revised) 😉

 

Have you ever dealt with mind games?  I have.  I do.  Some days are worse than others.  Today for some strange reason I allowed myself to be down and full of fear.  I felt paralyzed  and unmotivated.  Thankfully, a dear person in my life suggested I did something redemptive and purposeful to take my mind off of myself.  So this poem was what I came up with.  I don’t know if it will encourage anyone else, but it felt great to be creative and get my thoughts out.  If you ever need prayer, please let me know.  It is never good to go through these kinds of things alone.

Blessings,

Lara~

 

Whitman Inspired Poem ~

The kids and I learned about how to write in a Walt Whitman style.  This was my attempt.  I really like how this poem expressed what was on my heart and wanted to share it with you. = )

Our family jumping

The Life I Play

written by Lara Marriott

I play each day with a ball of hope

Excited to bounce it playfully along

Streets of new ideas and new adventures discovered

I play each day with a resilient heart

A jump rope of challenge that moves me up and down

To more health, more knowledge, and more proven successes

I play each day to the beat of a drum

Reminding me I am alive and human

I can excel with each thump, thump, thump

I play each day because I live for as long as God’s ruler measures

My life will be a determined playground

A fun-loving experience where joy, love, and hope abound

I play because playing is fun!