It is so easy to fall into this trap! It doesn’t matter how spiritual you are, nice you are, trained you are, we all are susceptible to the lies that entangle us when we compare ourselves to others. I’ll give you a current example from my life.
My family and I have recently moved and started attending a church where we live. We are not on the worship team right now, because we are having a sabbatical break. The first couple of weeks I was just so happy to be apart of the congregation worshipping Jesus. However, when I finally decided it was time to see if I could serve, I started mentally gauging where I would fit in, comparing myself to the other worship team members leading on stage. Lies filled my mind like; you are much older than they are; your voice doesn’t sound like any of theirs; I don’t like the way I look on camera; I lead differently than they do, and so on. It was because of these lies that I began to shut down and become fearful. I was allowing these lies to cloud my judgement and push aside the knowledge of WHOSE I was; that God had made me uniquely the way I am for a purpose and I didn’t have to apologize or compare myself to anyone else.
Satan is extremely sneaky. Scripture says in John 8:44 that he is the “father of lies.” He will do whatever he can to make us ineffective for God’s work. When we start comparing ourselves it leads to pride and selfishness. In God’s Kingdom, He is not looking for what the world looks for, no, He is looking for someone after His own heart. Yes, we need to do all we can to train and condition our voices to be the best that they can be, but that is not the most important factor in God’s eyes. He wants us to reflect His character and traits by the power of the Holy Spirit. He also wants us to be submissive to His leading. As worship leaders, we need to be ready to serve our church in any way we are asked.
It might be more glamorous to be asked to lead on stage in front of the entire church, but God might need you to lead at a funeral, a bible study, a moms group, a youth service; who knows. We need to be ready with a “yes” God. He needs worshippers who are servants first! This is such an important lesson to learn. The sooner we learn this the more effective worship leaders we will be. Plus, God has hidden blessings in the places He asks us to serve in. I was asked to lead the music at a memorial service for a dear friend today. I was honored and extremely blessed by the experience. Was it in front of thousands? No. Was I on camera, surrounded by lights and smoke? No. I was in the exact place, at the exact time, with the exact people God wanted me to be with. And because I said yes, I was able to sense God’s incredible love and presence.
Is comparison worth it? NO! When we have those thoughts creep up on us we need to speak out scripture and fight back with the sword of the Spirit. We need to remember we are God’s servants, fulfilling His purposes not our own. His ways are ALWAYS higher than our ways. Let’s get excited about where God will have us serve next and say, “Yes God!”