by Lara Marriott
My mind is playing tricks on me
even though I’m okay
I can’t be fooled; I’ve got this
Yet a dejavu takes me away
down the wrong path
To a place I wished I didn’t visit again
It is dark and deceptive
cold as sin
A spiral staircase leading to black
How did I get here?
I can’t walk back
It is drawing me in
I can’t get out
There is nothing I can do
I am the victim now…
No I am not. I’ve been told a lie
I will take back my life
one step at a time
I can get back out if I climb
I am not the victim
I can see the light coming into view
It is getting bigger and strengthening my will
I don’t need to swallow the world
I can’t handle more
There are so many things to be thankful for
Just take one day to the next
God says to my mind
I need to trust that He sees;
There is purpose to find
I will not be the victim
I am climbing back up
My resolve is to reflect
my Creator’s love
I am not the victim…anymore!
(this has been revised) 😉
Have you ever dealt with mind games? I have. I do. Some days are worse than others. Today for some strange reason I allowed myself to be down and full of fear. I felt paralyzed and unmotivated. Thankfully, a dear person in my life suggested I did something redemptive and purposeful to take my mind off of myself. So this poem was what I came up with. I don’t know if it will encourage anyone else, but it felt great to be creative and get my thoughts out. If you ever need prayer, please let me know. It is never good to go through these kinds of things alone.
Blessings,
Lara~
From the Heart of a Songbird 